rest-up

Tell him that I hate him
Tell him that I love someone new
Tell him that I don't need him anymore
Tell him that he is nothing for me
But please....
Don't tell him that I cried when I said all that...

when the eyes met...

yesterday, i went home by motorcycle. five of us with 3 motorcycle. i was alone. fara and syakir got their teman. haha. how about my mr ken? whos gonna drive it home? i have asked mr zaiful ikhwan to drive it and he said " beres". so i have no worries la. we departed at 4pm. but i tried to call zaiful neither texted him. but to no avail. i was sure pnyer, mesti tdo!!.uhh instead of trying to wake him up, baek aku btolak dlu. so we just let him aside and continue our journey. along the road, my mind was no peace. keep thinking about my car. not him k!..(geram pum ade)..uh..how can i reach him? suddenly zasss... ha ayie. ok.try to text ayie and asked him to go to zaiful's room. didn't reply till called him. laa tdo upenye. urghh..5 minutes to reach home, zaiful texted " sorry, as. ttdo rr". sokay la. just drive my car as soon as possible. but later on, i think back if anything could happen uhh..."bw slow2 je la..be careful"..i just love my car ok. if something happen, sure i am dead. my dad would turn to a tiger.kah3. i was expecting question from my parents. then..dinggg..

adik, mano keto?

on the way..

inside, i just monologue with myself, zaiful please hurry. its getting dark now. almost 7pm. a few minutes later, my phone rang. "as, boo duk cabang 4 da ni". quickly, wore tudung and waited him. at that moment, my dad is going to mosque. he always break the fast there. then zaiful arrived.

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at last, they met. 

the end

opss not yet. rushing send him home

kkbi EQ - 70%

kkbi PP - 50%

kkp MT - 30%

kkp ELA - 80%

kkbi BMA - 70%

kkp ELP - 0%

kkbi EKO - coming soon

where am i?

the time shows 2.24am. im still struggling finish up the kkbi for EQ. right now, ive done all questions except for ques c. need some fresh air to breath..open my window..opsss hell no! (penakot).

1 2 3 4

ohh today, i went home around 7.45 pm..im never late before. because usually, on thursday, right after class..zasss mesti lesap pnyerrr..err sometimes even the lecturer didn't go out yet..when he was signing for register, i'll go to him and say...thank you sir, have a good day! ;) today, me together with 3 more friends went to jerteh..(jerteh je pom) yer r..invite to shop at kb xnk..but never mind. haha..just drove there and bought a few stuffs for raya lol..but still cannot lawan with shopping at kbmall rr..and sorry to him because i have to cancel the plan for last minute. even die terasa pom. what can i do? ala..still got times kn..its just 9th in Ramadhan. 21 more days to go. rushing back with aini by my mr Ken WHX 1949 (ye ker??) speeding up till reaching 12o km/h..hoping that i can arrive home before berbuke..but hampeh..just drive-thru kfc snack plate with a glass of mountain dew..

life brief candle

currently at aini's room..haha..just hiding myself here without any distractions..need some privacy guys. (ye la tu, kabaha ponteng teraweh!!!).

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today, i couldn't keep my eyes away. staring u in front of me. with your strength, coolest style with innocent face. i know you are not like what people say, u have ability to speak just because you are too shy to show-0ff. why need to hide yours? rugi rr

watching every step of your mouth reading the poem. even though not with enough feeling, but one thing. i love that. if u can hear me..but its all ridiculous because from now on, we are far away. maybe you are not interested to be friend with me anymore. after the incident took place. well, i dont mind. as long as i know you n you know me. 

LIFE TO ME by e**

Life is every where
It is in you now and forever it shall stay
Life is the wind blowing sideways
Life is the winter and the summer
I am Life You are Life We are Life
I love Life and Life loves me
Life and I play beneath the midnight sun
Life and I play beneath the morning moon
Life brings me soup when I am ill
Life kisses me good night and greets me with a smile
Life is sad and it is lonely
Life is evil and Life is blunt
Life is a true friend and never lies
I am Life You are Life We are Life

praise to God

ive done performed my 1st teraweh prayer for this Ramadhan

teenage major prob

actually, i dont have something vital to be shared here..all i have..the feeling..the feeling of jealousy..haha..when i read aini's blog...i got envy to her..because she has so many things/stories to post..but me.none.haha..(da ko mls,as!) hmmm..maybe its true..so i just wrote something je la k..topic??hah..LOVE...consequences from her topic...everyone has different perspective when talk about LOVE..some says its amazing, some says its like in heaven, some says its hurt, some says its rubbish..what i say?? LOVE IS SUCKS!..opsss, mind here its just my own view k. if u say NO..then go ahead..who cares?haha

honestly speaking, at this moment, i have no LOVE..enough to say that the feeling of syg tu ade laa..but when it comes to LOVE or "cinta"..i would say..not right now..eee yucks.(koya)..haha..when i heard bout my friends being involved in this matter..and listen up to their problems regarding love..uhhh..what i can say is..think before act..one more things, the issue of being couple or not..hmm..i think that couple doesn't guarantee that the person is gonna be our husband..let say if i were couple with edward cullen, well 100% guarantee that he would not be my hubby...its ridiculous as!...mere example. sorry.

what about single?? wahhh, i like this..being single its like we live in our own world..well its not means that we just care for ourselves..what im trying to say here is..we just be we...no need to be hypocrite..act different when stand in front of people..i hate that! why need to be like that? can we just be normal in any kind of situation.@#$%^&..i would say that single=freedom.

*mood*

----> busying with course works

am i look chubby?

am i look sexy?

waaaa...

someone dedicated a song to me

last night, before i slept someone had dedicated such a beautiful song to me. i was totally melting after listen to that song. what a lovely song! to my readers, please click above and feel the lyric in your soul. how deep the meanings are. i really love it :)

thanks sarah!

Anda mesti beri pujian pada pemberi award ini

sarah, you are different now. kurus sket.

Sila beri award ini kepada 10 blogger yang lain 

1. ayie da chosen one
2. zahar da emo boi
3. muni kak moon
4. zaim da mendada one
5. aini da funny gal
6. nabil miss u damn much
7. hafiz 2nd dan black belt
8. nana so long not heard bout u lol
9. jelon same with above
10. alif heyy update yours

Anda mesti memberitahu kepada 10 blogger ini

let them know by themselves..nk tau alert ke x

Bagaimana anda boleh digelar blog yang best dan hebat?

ala she just put my name in the list..lol~reality, mine just simple one, not best nor superb!

waiting for the chance

when its gonna stop...

please do-not-read

i hate when someone disturbed my nights. i need to have enough sleep that is 6-8 hours perhaps..the more the better (byk la ko,as!). but someone called me and talked nonsense or something that i did not bother at all or something stupid matter and it wont give meaning to my life ever. I HATE THAT. lately, ive been in an omen situation. sort of it. mind u'ols or u all..(ngengade)..trouble is not my friend. no matter where u go, it follows u up. u cant run from 'em. i know that i shouldn`t really post bout this here. but LIKE I CARE. it is my right and yup obviously my blog. MINE. so i dont care bout people talking back bout me but please and please do not judge me if u were not know me better. i am seriously into this. (pnjgnye mukaddimah,aish)

ok. let us cut-it-off. this week was the toughest week i had for this sem. i hope. these kind of troublemaker were buat perangai lg..uhh, kids!. actually, i want to stay away from this prob. but u know la, i am very concern person when it comes to these matter. my friends, my classmates, my lecturers and me myself. my limit of patience had ended here. enough ok!..i was very fed-up with u both and begging u please not create any troubles anymore. (mcm la dorg bace,haha). plus i feel that im the oldest in the class and i'll take responsible for sake of us. opss, 2-nd oldest laa..cekmus first..haha. 

all lies that u told all sweet talks that u coax were not powered anymore. all i can say is u such a coward boy. huhu. why not face-to-face with me? why need to involve someone else? why ask someone to call me? why 'mengadu' to your sister and ordered me go to her room at NIGHT? and why u lied to her? poor her, she's a nice girl. talked bout issue in fb. yes, i admit it i used that vulgar words. but remember that. whos started first. if u say me, ohhh fuck off u. is u the one that bring up the issue by saying that 'mulut bdak prmpuan mcm babi'..something like that,couldn't remember lol~ i just realized that if we translate those words in bi, it would be, girl's mouth is like pig - wau thats SIMILE! because the word 'like' there..(praktik literature mdm mariah) haha..sewel la mek as. one thing to be shared. without knowing the truth, people out there might be lied by u. thats why when to identify something blurred, we need to hear both sides. dont judge a book by its cover. because if the cover is beautiful or very attractive, doesn't guarantee that the content will be superb too..ok my dear. we all hoping that u both or u the one will be like before. u know, a good friend. we are a family dont u remember, when we gathered altogether - laugh,eat,hang out..oh i missed 'em all. sobbing...

I MISS YOU..

REALLY MISS..

REALLY MEAN IT..

AND WILL BE MISSING YOU MORE

boring, hungry and waiting in anticipation

my love to u is never shattered

i hopefully pray so that

u and i will never be separated 

until fate comes in.

a day without u-

is like the earth without the sun

my love to u

will never dry

if it dries 

than the oceans, seas and rivers will be dry too

there is no alternative

u are the one and only-

thank u for making me a responsible person

i promise u

i will be a mature person and very thoughtful to-

others and surroundings

i love u mom...

i can't find it anymore

Black symbolize my life before

As I was left alone in the rain

With a black rose from which I came

Lying cold with the munificent claim

With pain of which I gain.

Dark was my world

I beg that you left me alone,

With my pain, I’m not insane

Sunlight please touch me

So I can crawl from the brawl.

Then a sip of light passes through the wall

When I thought, I would surely fall

That I could not understand at all

But I hang to the impenetrable wall

That’s when the wall cracked and fall.

Now I hang to the White light

That shows me to the right flight

Even it glows in the dark of night

That’s when I knew that I now right.

starting the August with sorrow devilish condition

feeling the pain inside while outside looks like a dead body

only me knows how does it feels...

when it comes

talk less, action less, eat less

breath more

seems im in my own world, with nobody surroundings

wishing my mom is by my side 

every second

every minute

every day

whole day

im dying silently...

i am a rock

A winter's day
In a deep and dark December;
I am alone,
Gazing from my window to the streets below
On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow.
I am a rock,
I am an island.


I've built walls,
A fortress deep and mighty,
That none may penetrate.
I have no need of friendship; friendship causes pain.
It's laughter and it's loving I disdain.
I am a rock,
I am an island.


Don't talk of love,
But I've heard the words before;
It's sleeping in my memory.
I won't disturb the slumber of feelings that have died.
If I never loved I never would have cried.
I am a rock,
I am an island.


I have my books
And my poetry to protect me;
I am shielded in my armor,
Hiding in my room, safe within my womb.
I touch no one and no one touches me.
I am a rock,
I am an island.


And a rock feels no pain;
And an island never cries.