reunion...maher

today,this morning i went to my former school-maher..rindu bangat!...we,six altogether for the first time met each other after we were in form5..that was so great!..we called it REUNION for sek 6 jahanam(sorry korg,cannot change the word)-ili,ida,yuni,nana,dlah n me-haha..its sounds better ape.so,i drove from home to take nana and dlah which are both live in pc..well,like usual,i am not pro yet in driving a car.so thats y i was late..sorry ekk..huhu.hmm then, we arrived at schoolh around 10am.parked the car,gathered and serbu!!!-with teacher zamani-

first place was for sure, canteen rr..ish3..met teacher zamani, she treats us fresh orange, keropok and fish balls..and many other teachers that we had met:-with cg che rahmah-mom in law to-be(poyo jer)-
cg.TJ-y gantan
cg.hasan ali-xdop gg
ustazah norjehan-baek giler
teacher dz-suara lantang
cg abd aziz-persoalannye?
cg rusli jusoh-loyar buruk
teacher nik-hott!
cg zahari-masih sweet
cg zaki-knl ili jer
cg kamal-nevertheless

fuhh..rmai gak ek..haha,we entered the staff`s room..hmm a lil bit crowded with people walking around..teachers seemed busy with their works,i guess..and not forgetting,we also wet with our former friends..they continue to form 6 and now in upper six level.we kinda visited them.haha.miss u all..-syerida-me-jie-

the most wajib thing is snap,snap and snap..we love snapping pictures..every single of building and place,we took pictures..even with `him`..ish3
-dunno know who???-me and dlah-
-scandal who??--at tmn datin-
after that..around 12.30pm, we pum went home..and me..need to send nana and dlah to their homes..so totally, today i was so so happy and superb.thx u guys

western style...

this was my dinner plate last yesterday..(cayalah)..actually there was no nasi last night so i took my own initiative to cook..hello i can cook k!.just name it-nuggets,crab ball,fish ball,fish chips,fries,sosej, etc...haha..the main purpose i bought fries and frankfurters was to bring at picnic aka reunion for my gang, sek 6 jahanam..agaga.but since the picnic had been postponed to another week so i mkn laa dlu..later i`ll replace rr.fuhh,looks like mat salleh daa.
chatting+eating=yummy!

big apple day

today, 14 june 09..i woke up at 1.30pm(straight face)...and hurry up to get shower because after that dlah will come and go out with her..the location for this time is at tesco...it is my suggestion to lepak there..tetibe feels like wanna eat big apple..tesco is the only one that has it.so i bought 4 donuts..unfortunately, the taste is not the same like big apple kuantan..this is is not so delicious...:(

maybe its because at kuantan, mamat nepal y buat kot..kah3...

meow..meow..

haha...due to my friend, jelon had posted his blog about his cats..now its my turn..

1)

proudly present..this is YB datuk simB aka pokteh(nama glamour)..haha..he is the leader in my cat`s family..pure jantan..actually this photo was taken long time ago..before he reach his maturity..now everythings is change..the colour for sure..not so white anymore..bkarat daa..kah3..this cat is so good because he just be at home when he wants to eat..after he is full, he`ll be around till he feels hungry for the second time...mostly he`ll be home for twice a week..my dad really syg him..n he is kinda funny with his gaya tidur..the 2nd pic is when he suffered from `bekok keng`..just look at his cheek..kembung gler...

2)

n this is pokcek..my mom`s cat...unique kan..black nose with socks..haha..she is beautiful with thick and soft fur..best wak dkap tdo mlm..kah3..she is the mother to her kids(mmg la)haha..dlah loves her..kan?hehe.i love her too and hmm...how i suppose to say this...she`s not here anymore!!!sob3...my dad had threw her away..far far far away from sini...so pity huk3..the 2nd pic is when she`s still virgin..(agah nk tdo ats tilam)..

3)

now representing....A.B.U...abu..pokcek`s eldest son..haha..he has no longer live in this world because he was died in the accident...my dad accidentally tpijak nyer with his bike...inna...haha..syg2...

4)

the youngest daughter produced by pokcek was named pokcek jr.(junior)..it is because just look at their faces..exactly similar kan..like mother like daughter.kah3..hmm this one i dunno la where did she go..still alive or not..but she`s not at home..

5)

hmm..this one i do not have any of her pics..because i hate her..but later on i`ll put her pic so that u all can see..haha..TAPOK is her name..my mom`s cat..all i know bout her is pregnant, pregnant n pregnant..ish3..gatai btl. she likes to eat friskies n drink milk even da tua..ngade2 btl.

6)

this is tapok`s son..(muke cm pondan kan)..errr his name is NO NAME..kinda funny right..hmm dunno else bout him..died already.

7)

ok..if u all can still remember...this is ikan paus aka poktam..my lovely cat.he is so so fat..i love to see his eat and he loves to eat..ahha..he will never feel kenyang..that is why he became like this..every night he sleeps with me..i really really love him..he is sometimes penakut laa..when he heard other cats were fighting, he will running and hiding himself under bed or be with me..unfortunately when i was at kuantan...and stayed there..he was kind of merajuk laa..because nobody cares bout him anymore...so he left home..till now,he is no where no be found..my feeling cannot describes into words..he is the only one..

souvenir from her

thank you so so so much darling for this...hehe..next time if u go somewhere else,beli lg ye..haha..
love to hang out with u
hmm..so many places that we wanted to go
kbmall is the most wajib place
eventhough, there is nothing there..
no GSC TGV..haha
next plan is tesco..
go to full the tank with kenny rogers roaster and play with the little fish at fish spa
hmm...not forgotten facial n hair saloon

haha..we need to get fully enjoy during this holidays before each everyone of us return to their own places..

accident!!!

omg!!!what a poor girl..ish3

jtuh tangga rr...
it really hurt me..
worry,worry n worry...

my sis`s wedding

finally,the day comes..my sis n her husband were safely got married on 7 june 09..the colour of the wedding are red and white..this combination was really matched to each other..thanks to
hisyam and family
yuni n ida
jelon and family..
for ur coming...hik3

busy+tired+bored

due to my sis`s wedding,everything is not under control..haha..everyone is busy with the preparation.include me..uhh

lately up to 12pm..

currently, my bedtime is around 2-3am..don`t know why this happen..seems like i don`t feel sleepy. my eyes stay freshy till the time comes..every single day, my lappy is on and the internet broadband 24hours online..huhu..

true friendship begins

last night was a very special night to me. my friend`s friend, Firdaus and I made our night awesome. we had made the friendship became something alive till i found that it hard to find this kind of friendship.Maybe that`s what we call, true friendship. how do i know him? well actually, beginning of this year, my former friend, Nik Aliff asked me to meet at Billion. and that day he brought together with him was a friend to accompany him. that was Firdaus. so,there i started to know him and till now we become closer and closer. we texted each other in every single day. but just sometimes when he`s not busy with his studies. because this year,he`ll be sitting stpm..i wish him the best of luck.
hmm back to our night, we recalled back how did we know and he mentioned the person who responsible to this that is, Nik Aliff..yes,he`s the only one who introduced Firdaus to me..and vice versa..because of him, me and Firdaus now are friend. so, i made suggestion that lets text him and saying thank you so much for what he had done to us. he agreed and he added to make similar short message and send to Nik Aliff..haha..make him surprise..
here is the sample of message
salam,thx for be the one who introduced Firdaus to me..(mine)
salam, thx for be the one who introduced As to me..(him)
haha..and yup,our sangkaan was true..just for a few seconds, he replied to me..
hah?whats wrong with u both...
me and Firdaus just LOL...we did it!!..end up with this, thx for being my friends..

1st date after 6months

we met at mcD kbmall around 12 pm...i really miss him and that day, we talked a lots of things, any topic that came across our mind..haha, he`s not change at all, still the same. he wore orange t-shirt and i like usual, brown one..

when i was at the parking space, i texted him ask where is he now..he replied by saying that he`s in front of ogawa...oh ok then...i entered the entrance and straight away to the location..haha..then i saw a guy was sitting on the long chair near the counter y bulat tu..kah3...its him..wah, still the same..he was reading the newspaper..and i smiled to him.we were sitting and facing each other..hehe really happy at the moment..we toured the mall,walking and looking at surrounding..and we ported to get rest at mcD..having launch...basically,about 3 hours we met that day and it was enough to show our loves respectively...that we were really missing..just imagine 6months without meeting, just contact through messaging and calling..to him,i would like to say..a bunch of thanks for everything..

slowly to love ...

My gift to you is my love
Given from deep within my heart
It is the best I have to offer
And its yours until this earth we depart

You have captured a part of me
A part so very fragile that I am in fear
For it is my heart I have lost
To you my love, the one I hold most dear

I chose to love you now
With all that I have and all that I am
And I pray that God follows us
To guide our steps as we cross this land

For it is with His blessings
We will live most at peace with each other
For He is the reason after all
We found one another ........ I Love You!

final result!!!

at last, the final result was launched yesterday but i didn`t able to access the server because maybe the line was too busy at that time...yea rr..rmai glerr y nk check..stucked!..so,this morning, i checked it..hmm not really satisfied rr..mnurun!!!haha..i only got 3.11 for this sem...waaaaa

it hurts me

late night...his sms had hurt me and made me sad all day...i thought that i wouldn`t contact with him anymore but i can`t do that...so...now,i am sms`ing with him...

here are the messages between me and him

abg:jom kua ptg esk,minum2..
as:esk??xleh rr..nk balk pp
abg:ish,ala jom r
as:xleh r..xtau sempat ke x ptg esk ni
abg:wateva laa..byk tol alasan..nk ajk jmpe pum ssh..da mcm vip da
as:(after read it)-terlopong for awhile..xde mood da..just texted nitez
abg:yup

END...

yesterday, he texted me and said sorry for what he did..i said nevermind..already forgot(btl ker?)haha..

happy mother`s day

haha..sorry mom for the late gift...huhu...nah, special for u my mom..i love u so much..

Mother the biggest gift of Allah to us
Mother the candle burn herself to light our life
Mother the other name of kindness
Mother who hold us nine month and suffer
Mother who feed us from her blood and milk
Mother stays sleepless all the nights holding us
Mother teach us how to walk and talk
Mother guides us and secures us
Mother loves us from start to end
Mother is mother no one can take her place
mother to me is ABOVE ALL

with lots and lots of love-adik noor

im back again!!

this morning at 5am..im back to my hometown..huhu...home sweet home..yabedabedu..missing lots of thing here...my syg...huhu...

homestay at kuala medang...

to end our foundation of tesl..we had an awesome programme that was homestay at kuala medang, kuala lipis pahang...the journey from kuantan to there was taken about 7-8hours...huhu..we were welcomed from them with paluang kompang,bunga mangga and sort of things..me together with my partner, atie were chosen to be ank angkat kpd tok penghulu kuala serau..kuala serau is the kampung y sgt2 ulu skali..haha..no line coverage but that place was really awesome..lalala.

miss this blog so much!!

arghh,long time of not posting blog here..a lot of things i missed..some i already forgot and some i still remember...huhu...ok,to start with what i remember,

APRIL
on 26th-i had a teaching programme for primary school at kuantan...the purpose of teaching is to promote the usage of English among pupils..

next,that night,i went home..on 28th-dlah`s birthday.i misses that date and late to wish her..sorry darling!on 30th-got maktab`s interview at kuala terengganu..ok..end all the activities in april..

MAY
start with 3rd-got spa8`s interview at klinik tendong. on 5th & 6th-hangout at kbmall,alone..huhu..that night, back to campus..7th-hangout with wawa and qila at megamall and ecm..next day-continue with lepaking..searching for the stuffs..on 8th-got tesl farewall dinner at vistana..10th-last paper for listening..11th-muet speaking...and..MERDEKAA!!!!

half merdeka

yabedabedu...one paper left..that is on 10april...lots of time to study...before tue, lets enjoy...lalala..megamall n ecm are the second home for me...money money money...

mUNSYi test

woke up early in the morning at 7am...but found that the bathrooms were fulled with law students..so need to wait for them..that was the reason why i was late..till pak busu naek angin...huhu..sorry..we,the munsyi candidates have the interview at matrix gambang...while the medsi candidates at sekolah indera...after the medsi, we were rushed to matrix gambang..pak busu was drifted all the ways till we, the passengers kecut perut..haha..well done pak busu..we were safely arrived before the time..thx..i had a chance to meet ali there..my former friend who studied there..he also a munsyi candidate..we chatted for a while..introduced him to my friends...

radio drama

at last..after having challenges and other obstacles...we managed to finish our radio drama...

kiss the rain

currently i`ve been addicted to instrumental music such as piano, saxsofone, violin and any slow music...i don`t now, lately my soul is like going to romantic feeling and by the way i am a romantic person but actually i am not like this before..every night, i need to listen to these kinds of music so that i can sleep well. in addition, i`ve set my ringtones too. i really love the piano`s instrumental KISS THE RAIN...and it is one of the twilight soundtracks.

why does it always rain on me by travis:

I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
I cant stand myself
Im being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain...

the day comes

finally,here comes the day of performing final drama..we were the first group that presented this morning..

lost temper to them

hehe...sorry guys...i didn`t mean it..juz i cant control my emotion anymore..and that was happened...i lost my temper.....

finaL dRama-a diamond pomegranate

ok..now im at padang lalang..doing rehearsal for final drama,im here since this morning..without bath(just one, in the morning)..feeling so uncomfortable...quite smelly..haha..

ENOUGH!!!

ok,now i totally pissed-off with people surrounding me...

today, i really really can`t stand on it anymore..after this, what is going to happen, just let it be..i dont care..

persuasive speech-single is better than couple-

at last...it comes to final speech..the last speech that i delivered in this foundation...TESL...PROUD!!!..haha..because after this, i do not know where im gonna to pursue my study...which faculty where i belong soon....uhhh..so back to this speech, at first i thought that i wanted to give a speech entitled ORGAN DONATION but then a day before the real speech, i found that wawan also is gonna to do it..he has the same topic with me...so, i need to change it..because for sure, he do not want to change it..well, i know him...lelaki kan!!..uhhh..but never mind, i already have a spare topic..which is BEING SINGLE IS BETTER THAN BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP...haha..what a nice topic kan??so, i brainstormed the points that prove that single is better than couple..haha...

here i have five reasons why being single is an awesome. firstly, you can take time to find the right woman/man. one of our reasons for staying single is that you can afford to wait for your true soulmate. remember that, if you are in a relationship now, it does not mean that you`ll end up with marriage and it also does not guarantee that your gf/bf now is going to be your future husband and wife. it is because we are still young, just 18 or maybe same of us are 19..we even do not know what might comes/happens in the future.
second point is freedom. when you are single, the world is your oyster. you can pick up and go anywhere you want, do anything you want, anytime you want. you are absolutely free to hang up with your buddies and find plenty of time for your personal interest and hobbies. best of all, you have the luxury of being all by yourself, if you feel like it.
third, you can have friends. being single everyone and enyone is your best friend. there is no jelousy. but if you are in a relationship now, for sure you can`t hang out with your different gender of friends. your gf/bf might get jelous and both you will get into a fight. but being single, it is no big deal. there is no fight waiting for you.
fourth is nobody gets hurt. very few relationships end in marriage.
as a single person, the biggest heart break you`ll experience is frustration. i am not deny that during relationship, there are peace and love.but once broken ( not as consider sold) but it might tend to ridiculous way. commonly a suiside case is very related to this.
lastly, you have money. dating has its price. you pay for evrything, hands down. once you get serious, the guy might start buying you dinner. this seems nice until you realize that have gotten so serious that you have just spent nearly about Rm1000 for him/her in just a month. being single allows you to keep all the money you earn.
so, the most important is there is no coupling in islam.

for single person out there, there is nothing to be ashamed off.not everyone is built to be in a relationship, and other people are not ready.

hmmm,basically this was my persuasive speech..lebih kurang la...

weekend in shah alam..

just now at 8.35pm...arrived at sec 17 bus station...my sis took me and we dropped at night market first because she said that she didn`t cook..so,ok fine..tapau je laa...after that, we straight away went home..im so tired..about 5hours in the bus..the seat was not so comfortable and ive got backache..then, the next day, my bro came. at that time, my sis went to work...he just came to repair something..at night, we went to watch movie 12 ROUNDS, casting by john cena. the wrestler..summary of this movie is Detective Danny Fisher discovers his girlfriend has been kidnapped by a ex-con tied to Baxter's past....hmm and he'll have to successfully complete 12 challenges in order to secure her safe release...this movie was so interesting till my sis got impressed by the actor...hahah...eventhought her fiancee was beside her..hahah...at the end, was some humours...well, it was nice lah....the cinema only contained a few people...maybe around ten jew...because everybody is focus on fast amd furious now...i need to watch it too....GSC waittt here i come..hahah..after JJ, we went supper at a restaurant..eat eat and eat...back home...sunday morning, my sis didn`t work..so we hang out since morning...haha...went to puchong, meru, SACC and last location was terminal bus....waaaa, im going back to campus....hmmm overal, i miss s.alam...and kuantan is sucks...

tesl A day-out

we enjoyed our bbq at taman teruntum beach....huhu

futsal n jom heboh

got 3rd place for futsal...ok laa..thankful..at night, went to jom heboh..tired of writing laa..hahha..to b continued

yesterday...

again...my snipet was hancuss...didn` remember the script..not only me but others..my group..we did snipet on act 3 of an inspector calls..

class trip

for class trip under madam laily, we went to kemaman...specific locations are kampung nelayan and mesra mall..the main purpose of this trip is to get the idea for our journal..huhu...

truancy?

is it call as truancy??ok today, we supposed to have a campus day out at pantai balok...but,i skipped it..i even don`t have any mood to join this programme this time..last sem,i involved..but this sem, i don`t know. it seems like theres nothing benefits that i can get from all these activities..in addition, i have been surrounded by all kinds of problems..i didn`t feel that i might be rugi because not join it..in fact, im just have ordinary feelings towards this matter..i can do my assignmnets, finishing up my NEW MOON, relaxing...etc...

sorry madam..:<

what are biggest mistake that we had done!!uhh...to mdm shima,our sporting,nice and friendly mdm...we felt really sorry..we didn`t mean to do it..mdm,please don`t mad at us..well, it goes like this..on thursday ago,we suppose to do presentation on our drama that is AN INSPECTOR CALLS...yes we did but with hmm can be sad poor and worse way...we just read the slides and do it like baby also can do it...read the slides!!..we are not delivered well, just read them straight away..really terrible..untill at last, mdm pissed-off and left the class..she left us just like that..and we..ternganga..do not know whats going to do..but before that, she spoke..she said that..
what are you guys doing just now???bla3...u all just read the slices even my sons can also do it..ok fine,u all just do whatever u wanna do...end...
after that, we decided to ask for apologize but she didn`t bother at all..ok mdm,we admit that was our fault..but please don`t be like that..we need u..we`ll do it again..better!

demo speech!!

for demo speech, i demostrated on how to make potpourri..huhu..actually, this brilliant idea i got from dlah, my bestfriend..i asked her what im gonna do for demo speech..n i said that i wanna make something that related to flowers..hmm and then she suggested that..ha why don`t you make potpourri...also required flowers,since u want it..that`s why i love u..huhu

so,i did it..but i think that was not my best performance..i got seriously nervous when im doing it..in addition, the strangers came into my class and watched me..i felt down..how poor me are..why i always got disturbed by this sort of!..i can`t do the best if the people came in and paused my performance..but never mind.past is past.it was also my fault..i can`t handle or control my nervousness..that is what madam said to us...uhh sigh(again)..

twilight begins

hehe..now i have been addicted to TWILIGHT.it was a very interesting story,an awesome a love story that ive ever seen in my life.i love it!damn so much..the actor,uhhh it makes me drooling.what a charming creature in the world..oh god,please..after i watched the movie,i realized that my soul been infected to this movie.now im reading the novel.ive bought the novel NEW MOON..it is the second episode of the twilight..after this,i`ll buy all episodes of the twilight.there are 4 of them.TWILIGHT, NEW MOON, ECLIPSE and BREAKING DAWN...i love edward cullen..

i lost him

i lost him,totally

forever..n..ever

i do love him but everything seen wrongly when i closed to him.people didn`t like us..and the surrounding keeps to force me to avoid from him.i did once..but i can`t.so i had neglected people`s views and continue our friendship without any worries.recently,i got a terrible horrible serious and acute fight with him..well,its not my fault at all..nor him.hmmm ok fine!its my fault.i rather called as a guilty compared people blame to him for what had happen..but he also guilty in this situation..yesterday,i completedly realized that i had lost him forever.definitely!!!he was my friend now...

finally..

finally,ive watched twilight and geng upin ipin...best siott..i gave five starts..edward cullen is such a really really really gorgeous man that i ever seen...uhhh,fall in luv with him...about geng plk,very funny..haha..starting from beginning till the end..gelak je keje..suke suke suke!..haha

fainted..

this afternoon,the most menace experienced i had..being fainted in public..malu glerr...

3 in the morning..

stayed up till morning to finish my assignment, that is an essay..that was my first time i did it till 3 am..wau,malvelous

we are purplelious

my group for play-drama A DOLL`S HOUSE had decided to wear the same colour of baju kurung..hmm,on the that day we acted..7 of us,wore purple baju kurung..that was so nice.looks like boria plk..haha

an awesome evening!

this evening,we,all teslian students went to taman gelora beach to have some exercises with our beloved lec-that is mdm shima...ok,let me story u(ayt mdm roose),hua3..we,ladies began our journey,ceyy(journey nah,poyo btl bia 10mnt jah pum) at 5.15pm.when to kampus remaja first to take the boys then to taman gelora..at time we arrived,mdm didn`t come yet.so,we do our own activities laa..what else,snapping pictures everywhere..some of them were mingle around..and me,just sit under the tree with my buddies nabil n yuni,since qila was absent due to period pain.
the first activity we did is,as usual,warm up.khalis was the leader and guide us.next is,POCO-POCO...this requires the volunteers need to be in front to show us the steps.because,not remember maa,quite long not doing this.haha..hmmm,so naim afiq shazni n nik were the trainers.it was fun and i got so so so sweet memories there..my gang port the end of the line so that we can easily curi tulang..hahha...pe rr..beside me was wanie aka mak guard,haha..she made jokes all the time till we cannot focus to the poco-poco and at last we lost..haha...so we just saw others doing.after that,chicken dance.this dance requires us to act like a chicken and the most vital is to gerak2kn our buttock..embarassing lol..to take safety,i didn`t do it..malu rr beb..hua3.but mak guard did it..hmm due to her size,it was funny when she shake her body..we laugh nonstopped,but she still do it..hahah..last activity was,bola beracun(poisonous ball kot)huhu..this is the most i like..ok..it goes like this,we need to make a big round.as big as we could laa..and some people need to be chicks and get into the round...so the rest will throw the poison ball to the chicks.i mean hurl the ball to the body laa..so that after kena tue,consider die laa..poison kn...hahah..
first groupo was,tesl A that is my class..we were the chicks..after one by one die,the last chick that left was me,uhh...kire sly chick rr..poyo jer..but at last died gak...next is class B.in this class, my target was two person.nik and nazif..nik because his ego,ckp bsr sgt..so i killed him.but nazif,i failed..he is so wild..several times i try to shot him,but mission incomplete rr..but at last he died jgk..someone had killed him but not me k..last was class C..next,all the boys..again my target was nazif but still can`t do it..kebal glerr bdk nie..aish..and the last one is,the volunteers.and this one included mdm..uhh,so pe lagi.haha.best rr..and again i was the last chick that survive,and as usual died at last..ok,in this time,the revenge began.im his target..haha..ciss,ok its fine..no motive k..just for fun..nizwan was the murderer,he killed me violently..haha..
to put in a nutshell,it was an awesome evening and i totally had fun with all my buddies..but he still didn`t talk to me..:( sigh~

im nobody to anybody?

oh plzz laa..he said this qoute...wtf?can i believe it?no no no...u better dont as,come on...

it comes again..

bullshit!!that sucks feeling come again..arghh..i surrounded with stress..feel ashamed with myself and friends..well he is quite kind guy but..uhh...i dont know..im lost..it seems like im his victim..AGAIN??but why im always be like this??its not what i want..ok,maybe its my fault.im a gullible person-easy to trust somebody..and i take all those things lackadaisical..which mean,do not care what people say about the guy..well it is because what people say and the guy says are different..

ok,for example,a friend of mine which is my friend since we were child..he says that the guy is a playboy and never trust him.but the guy says to me that,he is not and sincere to me..arghh~things are getting messy now.i dont know who im suppose to trust.until yesterday i saw him....with....a girl..the girl is his girlfriend..actually,a month ago,he texted me and said that somebody wants him..so i just answered,ler accept jer laa..because i just wanted to be friend with him not more than that..so,after that day..i know he is taken but i dont know whos the girl..but yesterday,he and his gf went to watch movie..

why i felt ashamed of myself and friends??because for several times,me and him went hangout together,just both of us.even in the cinema..thats why i feel down..the thing is not gonna to happen like this if i be more careful and listen to what people say..last night,i cried..really stupid dumby..i called my bestfriend and told her everything..after cry and cry..i felt relieved and fresh again..from that day,the feeling of hate boys come again and im sure that this time it will remain for a long time...im an antiboys!

surprise party!!!

OMG...thanks u guys...u all rock!superb!i love u all...

ok,it goes like this..actually at that night,i was sleeping.but my roommate,wawa came and wake me up..she said that,

as,klua jap..p ambk tdung itam ko kt ampaian

and then,i felt weird because i didn`t wash any of my tudung yet..so,with a heavy heart,i went outside my room..when i opened the door...SURPRISE!!!-the song of happy birthday came and i felt like im the most lucky person in the world..i cant stop smiling with all my friends surrounding me, it was one of the best days of my life...ceyy.all eleven of us look happy; it was a night for many smiles...everyone is crowded in the middle of the study room..

teaching...

really really really have fun today...

sir nawy told us that this coming saturday,7 of we are needed to go to mock teaching..teach form 5 students from sm teknik seri pelindung..so we got shocked..he asked for volunteers but only two responded...the rest just silent.included me..haha..then due to that,he picked random from the name list and jeng3.....me is selected...oh shitt!..ok fine..im going to teach..at first i thought that one person per class..got so so nervous, im not well prepared..as we arrived at the school, the teacher there told that ok..thats only 4 classes,so two persons per class..hahha...relieved for awhile.so,qila and me went to the class..hmmm...ok,mostly female students.male just 10persons..haha..relieved again.first thing we did was ice breaking.like usual..we played some games, tought them literature lil bit..well, the students were quite ok laa..sporting and naughty2..haha...we tought them for 2hours..enjoyed gler2...

ongbak 2

went to watch a movie...that is ONGBAK 2..err...actually im not really like this movie, this genre..but..tgk jew laa....because at last the hero died without killed the villains..

i cried??

i cried and cried...in the toilet after presented the story telling. im so so so `lucky` because be the second person that will present.oh,lucky i am..(poyo jerr). actually im depressed due to that number..well,im not saying that im not well prepared.im memorize the story telling and prepared for it.but not to be the first or second person.instead im the first girl who be the story teller..im so so nervous..god,damn it!!!arghh,that why after that,i went to the toilet and ....

eventhough i succeed in the story telling which means i memorizes the whole story but im still not satisfied with my performance.i think that i could done better than that.if i were at number 5,6,7...

but,past is past right..so,i just accept it and well, now im not depressed more..the sucks thing that worry me now is,my pimple..near my nose,it really sucks and embarassing me.(stupid laa)..til at the moment i felt ashamed to go out with my friends..argh!!damn damn.

first birhtday`s present..

haha,even my birthday is not coming yet,which is 6 days more..i already got my first birthday`s present from my sis...huhu..that is CANON PIXMA PRINTER...hahaha..so funny ler..anyway,thanks along..even it seems not like a present..hmmmm

eight days more...

my 19th birthday is just around the corner..im not feel happy or impatient to wait that day..instead i just feel saddy..waaa..i don`t want to be 19,i wanna remains 18 forever..if i can..uhhh

i wish i have a party for that..just a small one.buy the cake,celebrate with my buddies..we sing the song of happy birthday, we laugh, we what else??hmmm..

but usually,when it comes to a birthday of someone, we normally do these

1) sapu toothpaste kt muke besday girl tue

2) baling telur

3)bedak sejuk

hmm...some sort of things laa...

havoc week

this is the most havoc week that i ever have..really mean it..from 8 subjects,only one that not have assignment...im damn busy!!the one that didn`t have assignment was basic principles in edu. by tuan hj..haha..the rest full!!..starting from monday till thursday..on mon-i have presentation and snipet on literature..im going to be partner with qila(the roommate).tue-ok this one is 3 in 1,college reading 2 by dr j.we gonna to have a quiz, an article bout environment and the most excited part is watch movie...the title is BEAUTIFUL MIND..in the afternoon,we have IPA test aka phonetic symbols.uhhh..i can imagine how tiring it will  be.on wed-we have presentation on adverb..well,we still dunno who will be the presentors..haha,but its not ME!..i will just be the finder..haha...find the materials..and uhhh the most vital is..in the evening,we all gonna to have STORY TELLING..arghh!!im dying..uhh,need to memorise the story and comes out with props and acts like the pro story teller..thu-the last class,college writing with mdm laily(bestzz)..she is our friend..journals and the outline of organ donation..after that.I PROUDLY WILL ENDED THE HAVOC WEEK....closed...

back stabber??

OMG!..the biggest lie that i ever heard and at last had been spread away..a life cheat,everybody believe it.EVERYBODY!..i dont know why she acts like that.she have abilities,she is smart,quite pretty,rich and can be said that she own everything.except love from a guy..to me,i think we dont need it.we can survive without a man.uhh~sigh~..this happened to my closet friends and me as well.actually that girl,let me give the name so that its easy to understand.hmm,SS.ok.before this,we and SS were so so so close together.we talked,laughed,eat together and be in a group of assignment.we dont know the truth.and truth came on feb,1st ago.when A (not the real name) told us that the real SS..we got shocked,really we were..the SS even condenmed me and all of us laa..only she is the perfect person in this world.she keep on to tell others by saying that

eee,as tu gediks laa...bla3..

argh.i was really pissed-off..feels like want to slap her face in public..who do not mad??not just me..but all of us.her classmates.the most vital is..her soulmate,bestfriend,roommate...i felt sympathy to her..some how i think that what is the motive she did all sort of these???oh,the funny is,she has feeling with one boy from our class..well,there have four boys in our class..guess who?hahah..cannot mention here..really funny..she has confessed to that boy that she like him..and u know what...hmmm,the boy had rejected her...oooo how poor she is..so,starting from now,i dont want to interrupt in this case anymore.i`ll just listen only..well,im a good listener..dont want to get fight with anybody..i`ll just be myself and let the whole life(this problem) pass by me..i dont care anymore..ignore her...

jubilant moment

about today`s class..

both were so so excited.im never felt like this before.but today was an awesome.first class with mdm jue-teaching literature..fuyy0,really live and didn`t get boring or yawning..we did presentation on short stories and novel..haha..there have some moments that we nonstop laughed because of presentor..like afix..haha..he got maybe nervous and keep on to do mistakes on pronunciation.till madam correct him several times..and then ask

whats wrong with u today afix?

next class was,sir nawy-basic education..it was commonly that in this class,we were talkative.everyone should talked.he asked us a lots.so,even some of us got yawn or even slept..but still we can made some noise..huhu...

back to campus..

tonight will be the night that i`ll leave kelantan..over again...dont make me change my mind..i would leave to kuantan...lalala....hahaha...(rosak lagu!)..huhu

today, i spend rm150+rm30+rm20=rm200 laa...uhh

i bought perfume from the body shop at kbmall, and then went to al-ikhsan to but bag adidas and slipa jepun..haha..in the evening,i took laundry and shopped some food...so altogether almost rm200+ laa..uhh..when i think back again..uhh OMG.btl ke aku ni???ive not done my packing yet because there were so many things that i wanted to bring along with me..huhu..my ticket is at 1.00am..so,i think i`ll sleep first and then wake up maybe at 12.30am-rushing to the bus station..just near my house..5minutes way..really2 near.believe me..haha.about the assignments..proudly i would like to mention it here that...none of them were finished.haha..im so so lazy..dunno why??
lastly,take care mom,dad and everyone.so long and good bye!!

finally...

at last,he forgive me..thx...now,everythings back to normal again...no more qoute I HATE BOYS..haha...poyo btl laa..

actually, i thought that he dont want to forgive me and both of us will be enemy for such a long time..i feel like depressed because i dont want to be like that..u know,study in the same class and he is my class rep..dont talk or even smile..just bmasam muka jer..its not fun! so,how we gonna to do assignment together sooner or later..i mean for drama class..for sure boys will mix with the girls. two days ago,i open my page(fs)..and saw comments..its there..he send me a comment.saying that sorry bla bla bla...at that moment,i feel relieved and relax..haha..and i replied him back...

now..no more fighting..thx

im back again..

hello everyone,today,at 12.30pm,i arrived in my hometown safely..huhu..actually these holidays because of chinese new year+my mid sem..so,all together about a week only..well,its quite enough..(ye kerr). actually i`ve got my holiday on 26th ago..but im not going back to kelantan terus laa..instead i went to shah alam first..stayed with my sis for two days..we did shop at JJ..

we departed from home at 5am..and continue our journey to kelantan..haha..so that why la..we arrived early..on our way home,we got summoned..haha..due to crosses the double lines..so rm 300 `melayang laa`...

D.I.S.A.S.T.E.R

i got fight with my class rep...im sorry!!!....feel really down all the day..

outlander

hi..

this time,on my sunday routine was..as usual,its movie time!i had watched OUTLANDER.at first, i thought that the movie just ordinary and maybe i might sleepy in the cinema but it was totally wrong.that movie was superb!i enjoyed watch it with my buddy.haha but,i think that my buddy was not happy as me..haha..he yawned,slept, and keep on to disturb me..(kacau btl la).

well,the story is about a man that came from a planet in outta space. his name is Kainan.together with him is a bloodythirsty creature or looks like an alien known as Moorwen. Man and monster both seek revenge for violence committed against them. Moorwen killed thousands of villangers. so,Kainan trying to find ways to destroy that such ugly monster. Combining his advanced technology with ancient Iron Age weapons, the hero leads a desperate attempt to kill the monster - before it destroys them all.hehe,i think i fall in love with the main character who played as Kainan. he is James Caviezel..hansome and charming man with `beautiful` body..

MUET

band achieved......#

repeat!!

being menace!

arghh..being ashamed by a guy in public...

the story goes like this...

this evening,i got really really embarassment moment..i went to arked for..what else,mkn laa..and then,after finished the meals..i duduk2 while waiting for the rain to stop..at that time,the rain was heavily.

on the table,i saw newspaper..so i took it and read them.then,a guy came and sit next to me..he just saw me..and suddenly...arghhh..he said,

kak,nati pas bace,letak sini balik ekk...(errr,i feel like im dying)

i responded,awk pnyer ke??(show him that papers)

he replied,yes!

everybody laughed at me..even myself..i was really ashamed and do not know what to happen.hahahahah.i thought that the papers was belong to arked..because arked also owned it..

as,pas ko bace,pas kt aku ekk..

haha..i laughed nonstopped..haha..so,in the end,the guy smiled and same as we all...

THE END...

sunday`s movie

ok,today...this morning,i went out to mega with qila. the main objective is to withdraw some money..and to watch movie..i watched THE SPIRIT with nazif..but then,qila and madi with their own story..haha,BED TIME STORIES.actually,the story was quite bored and it was err can be classified as stupid movie..haha..the plot of the story was taken from the comic.from the comic,it made movie.we did laugh non-stopped because of silly jokes by both main characters,that is SPIRIT and his enemy,OCTOPUS.i just eat and eat pop corn till it was none..while watching,my stomach out of the blue..err sounding like (u know that the sound of stomach when hungry)hahaand it made me ashamed because he heard that.my face turned red.but we still enjoyed..at least we hung out together and met one another.after that,we ate at kfc..he wanted it..i just followed jer..huhu..me-just ordered 6pieces of nuggets and he-a set of kentucky..he was really hungry..haha..pity him..it seems like im the only one who didn`t watch BEDTIME STORY yet..waaaa

laundry time!

[Record scratching sounds]

Yo, brother A to Z
Yo, whassup B?

Yo, what time is it?

Haha it's laundry day

uhh,a bundle of clothes..used clothes!..so,today,i do not have any class, woke up at 7..prayed subuh,got online till now,do downloading for the latest songs,having my breakfast( just with milo cereals and bread)..i think its enough la for this moment..haha

i handwashed all the clothes because here still not have washing machine.kak nisah told that,maybe couple of week more we`ll receive those awards..haha plus astro and water cooler..COMING SOON!..so,while waiting for that precious comes,i need to use my soft hand and sacrifice a lil bit..

hmm,friday,saturday and sunday will be my most boring days..because its weekend..no class!but then, those days are suppose to be my study+revision+assignments times..this sem,i really really need to struggle so that i can get better result and being place in B.Ed Tesl uitm...as far as i know, it was really hard to get there..example,our senior last year,only one who got there..that made me so so nervous and frightened..arghh

sec0nd sem..

arghh..first class had been cancelled by mdm jue..huhu..she teach us introductory to literature..this new sem is little bit messy,with different lecturer,environment...all is differ from last year..and
I DON`T LIKE IT!!
starting from yesterday,i`ll be bz like usual..haha..

a very long and sucks journey??

arghh!!!..tired of all these..almost 11hours in the bus...juz imaging that,the surrounding,environment,people,seat,air..uhh.departed at around 9am(even in the ticket at 8am)..and arrived at terminat makmur at 8pm..

kUantan hEre i coMe...

before that,i wanna wish my best buddy..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,QILA....so, now you are 19..haha,so old.b mature and acts like adult ekk..no more pampered.huhu..hoping that you success in your life and happy always..may god bless you...

so,tomorrow morning,i`ll be back to my campus.the bus at 8.00am at langgar station bus..argh!i need to wake up early which mean i hate damn it..haha.for sure mom will send me very early in the morning.maybe an hour earlier than the real time..i hate waiting!!...all i hope is, let the bus wait for me..hahaah..ahh,im not packing yet.but its ok because only few things that i`ll bring along..

SO LONG AND GOOD BYE!!..

haPPy neW yeaR!!!

on new year`s night,i did nothing...i slept at 9.30pm...haahhhahaha.with the cold air breeze,it made me really sleepy and rejuvenated...feels like im living at overseas..huhu.so,all i wanna say here is,for this new year,im not celebrating it.juz welcome 2009 and bye bye 2008...hope 2009 will brings a lot of lucks to me...and everyone...hehe..continue sleeping,Zzzzz